Friday, March 16, 2012
Swallow
I feel myself sinking into the great quicksand of blah!!!! Someone throw me a rope! Gonna organize and clean my life...starting with my room! The freakin walls are caving in and the days merge into night. I need space!!!! Since I can't go out and get my own... I must work with what I have! Clean room, clean up my life...and clean out my head!!!! -_-
Friday, March 9, 2012
Insomnia
It's very late in the night...I am thinking about everything and nothing in particular. Sound familiar to anyone? Besides having no luck with Jon hunting, my coworker asked me how it was going today. He gave me some great advice... "pray on it! And if nothing comes along then it was meant to be that way and it's just another opportunity for you to pursue something else!" lol this made me smile because it's very true. I do believe God has a plan for us all, we just need to be patient. I think I am going to take a step back and be grateful of my current situation instead of planting time bombs in my head. God will take care of me as he always have in the past! :)
OMG! Onto other news...the only thing that is keeping me sane anyhow! My annual memorial holiday beach trip is in full effect! I am so excited! I can not wait to arrive in Destin and just kick back! The sound of the waves, blistering heat w/the sun, beautiful views of the ocean! AHHH! It is much. Deserved for all of my companions of the trip! :) yippee! Gotta get my body right...I won't be have a beach body but at least I will be proud of myself for doing something! :D very very excited!
Ok, gotta hit the sack now. Think I will try to get into the routine of writing everyday...even if its just rambling...at least my thoughts won't be trapped inside! Gnight
OMG! Onto other news...the only thing that is keeping me sane anyhow! My annual memorial holiday beach trip is in full effect! I am so excited! I can not wait to arrive in Destin and just kick back! The sound of the waves, blistering heat w/the sun, beautiful views of the ocean! AHHH! It is much. Deserved for all of my companions of the trip! :) yippee! Gotta get my body right...I won't be have a beach body but at least I will be proud of myself for doing something! :D very very excited!
Ok, gotta hit the sack now. Think I will try to get into the routine of writing everyday...even if its just rambling...at least my thoughts won't be trapped inside! Gnight
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
thinking cap....
I haven't written a blog for the new year yet...and tonight I finally have something to say...or well some thought I wanted to write about before I head to bed!
Personal Life:
I've graduated and things aren't moving as fast as I'd hoped. Although I've submitted MANY job applications...not luck! I know I just have to keep trying and pray that I will get lucky one day to get a call back! My current job is steady but there is a lot of BS that goes around the company that I am quite fed up with! Sure sure...that's any job but it is really time to pack my things and get the hell out of there!!!! Other than that...I am good.
Love:
My love is still by my side and as the days pass by, our love gets stronger and stronger. It's no means perfect but good enough for me! :D I still wake up sometimes wondering how I got so lucky to have such an amazing person to call my lover. He completes me...and assures me that I too complete him! We have much to work on but at least we have one another for this journey! Who knows what the future has in store for us!!!!
Friends:
It's been kinda stormy. I don't have many friends but the ones I do have are very important to me. I work very hard at my relationships and most of the time it is a mutual understanding relationship. Unfortunately for one...it's been a battle. The sad part is....I don't believe the conflict has to do with me. I believe the drama stems from deeper problems that one may have deep down inside and sometimes I get caught in the cross fire. Therefore, it is really nothing I can do. I have tried my best to be a good friend but when the relationship becomes abusive....I will reach my breaking point. I pray it will get better...but the odds don't look too good. I refuse to be someone's punching bag! I hope God will bless my friend with the courage to face her demons and ultimately over come them!
to be cont.....
Personal Life:
I've graduated and things aren't moving as fast as I'd hoped. Although I've submitted MANY job applications...not luck! I know I just have to keep trying and pray that I will get lucky one day to get a call back! My current job is steady but there is a lot of BS that goes around the company that I am quite fed up with! Sure sure...that's any job but it is really time to pack my things and get the hell out of there!!!! Other than that...I am good.
Love:
My love is still by my side and as the days pass by, our love gets stronger and stronger. It's no means perfect but good enough for me! :D I still wake up sometimes wondering how I got so lucky to have such an amazing person to call my lover. He completes me...and assures me that I too complete him! We have much to work on but at least we have one another for this journey! Who knows what the future has in store for us!!!!
Friends:
It's been kinda stormy. I don't have many friends but the ones I do have are very important to me. I work very hard at my relationships and most of the time it is a mutual understanding relationship. Unfortunately for one...it's been a battle. The sad part is....I don't believe the conflict has to do with me. I believe the drama stems from deeper problems that one may have deep down inside and sometimes I get caught in the cross fire. Therefore, it is really nothing I can do. I have tried my best to be a good friend but when the relationship becomes abusive....I will reach my breaking point. I pray it will get better...but the odds don't look too good. I refuse to be someone's punching bag! I hope God will bless my friend with the courage to face her demons and ultimately over come them!
to be cont.....
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