Relationships

People come and people go...you can't hold to them forever. I find myself constantly learning things that I should have learned a long time ago. Maybe I have been in denial...wishing for something that I knew in the end would never be. What are relationships if they are always a one way stream? What people fail to realize is that in today's world, your reputation and perception goes a long way. So please I beg of human kind to come about your own judgment and not by a bias interpretation of someone's personality. It is hard enough to find genuine people, but for their image to be tarnish b/c someone may not have had a positive encounter...it break my heart because often times it happens to me.  By no means am I perfect but I know I have a good heart. Please don take that away from me! You can not like me, that is fine but please don't  tarnish my heart.

It is apparent the dinamics of my relationships have changed...but it sucks I wasn't given the opportunity to redeem myself. My feelings were really hurt tonight. There's not much Anyone can understand unless they really know me. Yes, I have a hard head and. Soft ass. It does hurt when I fall on it. ...sigh, relationships is a hard thing for me...

Secrets

Beethoven's 5 Secrets - OneRepublic (Cello/Orchestral Cover) - ThePianoGuys



Now this is AWESOME!!! :) And brings a smile to my face....calms my nerves. It's been stressful lately at my new job. It's not so much the work but getting use to working with new people. I thought it was bad where I use to work but it wasn't at all cause I got use to it. With a new job, meeting new people was exciting but over the past few weeks I am getting to know these individuals more and sometimes...and often I receive unkind words. On a regular basis this would not bother me, but I am trying my best to be "nice" and approach my coworkers with a different attitude. I just need to be patient with myself I guess. Wish me luck everyone...I've got a long way to go. I am giving myself 6 months to test the waters and if there is not much growth in my department...I may have to think up plan B! I will not allow myself to become complacent but continue to push myself each day to learn a little something new. I will not allow myself to lose to someone simply because I did not "know"... I will FIGHT!!!