I got her back!!!

I got her back!
As much as I tried to avoid it, there's this one lady that holds my heart.
Even though she makes me angry and sad, she gets me.
She gets me like no one can.
I missed her dearly.
I broke down and realized how much I do care,
how much I could not function without a healthy relationship with her.
Unfortunately others around me had to suffer, I apologize.
Her friendship, it is so effortless.
We laugh together, cry together, and parade the night sidewalks together.
With her I feel carefree.
We have such a mutual relationship.
Our friendship is truly like no others.
For a while I felt I lost her, that she wrong me.
Although we all make mistakes, my best friend was trying so hard.
This best friend was fighting for me.
It made me so happy when I realized this.
Someone who loves me, as much as I love her.
It feels so good to receive text messages from her,
and talk about what we are going to wear for nye. tehehe
I guess what I get from her is complete trust.
She rarely questions or challenge my decisions but trusts that I will always put her first.
I missed her, I missed our effortless friendship!
No matter where she goes, I'll always have her as a friend.
That means the world to me.
I thought I could drop her like a bad habit, but little did I know...I am addicted.
Although we hate certain things about one another, we just accept each other.
I can be mean, she can be sensitive but we work it out somehow.
I love this girl, I really do.
She drives me crazy, but at the end of the day...
a part of me is missing when I am not on good terms with her.
I don't know what else to say...I just love her. :)

HAHAHAHAAA

I think I am going to stop caring...it actually feels kind of good.
Lets see what all these selfish people are talking about...HAHAHAHA

What a night...

What a night it was!!!
I had a blast tonight...hitting the dance floor.
I left my worries at the door and just let me hair down for the night!
Although TOM was visiting...I pulled my pants up and shook my booty!
hahahahaa It was so relaxing and carefree!
lol a club...relaxing??? Yes, the dance floor is my stress reliever sometimes.
Good company is a plus!!! :)
I bumped into many faces. Many pleasant, other not so much! lol
Nonetheless, I did not let it ruin my night.
I kinda feel like I matured a little as far as my social reaction to people.
It's not about putting on a mean face and cold shoulder,
but rather embrace them for the good things they brought to your life.
What can I say...I was in a good mood. :)
On the other hand...when I went to the ladies room, I felt like I was in the wild wild west!
LMAO!!! AWKWARD! But guess what, IDGF!
But the night went on and it was still fun.
Thanks ladies for taking me out!!! :D 

We Are Broken Paramore

cause we are broken...

I MADE IT!

Well not just yet but I SURVIVED THE SEMESTER!!! now a song to celebrate! tehehe

This semester proved to be the hardest and I got through it! I have two more to go...which will be relatively easy compared to this Fall semester! :D I will have 2 hard classes in the Spring but I know I will definitely pass them. AHHH! All the heavy weight just lifted off my shoulders when I went to go check grades! YAY!!! :) But truthfully, I passed because the teacher liked me...and THANK GOD she did. lol I do feel sorry for everyone else who put in the effort but did not gain the approval of the professor. That truly SUCKS! I guess better luck next semester :/ But I MADE IT!!! You guys don't know how happy I am! UHHH!!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!! :D :D :D Now for everyone else to finish finals so we can all celebrate!!!! Goodluck to everyone who is taking finals right now!!! :)

It's good to have old friends....

old friends keep you grounded...

and they know the innocent side of you

they usually say the right thing

to help you understand

to help you grow

and what a wonderful feeling that is :)

 

"it's not holding your tongue or being fake

its just being adaptive to people's personalities" -D.S.

Rihanna - Complicated (Lyrics on Screen)

this song applies to all kinds of relationships...i like it!!!

A Moment of Inspiration-

LET IT OUT, LET IT OUT! Let your true feelings out and consume you.
And once you have awaken from your deep sleep of fear, embrace the new you.
Be ready to love again, feel again, live again!
The road less taken is less taken for a reason.
It has no mercy for the weak and no patients for the lonely.
Though these feelings are allowed,
if it consumes you...
you must rise or be taken down to the deep, dark hollows of the ground.
Where you do no deserve the sun light but to be shamed by the darkness.
Cruel? Yes! But it is there, where you lie in fear that you will realize.
Awaken! It is only there that you will fight!
Fight for AIR!
And when your lungs are all filled with air, it is then that you will realize...
You are all you've got.
And if you do not fight for yourself,
you will only rot.

is it time?

I think it's time...
time to cut back, time to cut off
we're bumping heads, clash of personalities
too much talk, too much mess
too many expectation and let downs
i'm quite exhausted. i never complained.
but now i think it's time
time i let you go
if you like to be taken seriously
maybe you should act more like an adult
stop hiding behind your insecurities
just because you can hide your truth better
it doesn't make you any better
i'm not perfect, you're not perfect
but can you own up to being imperfect?
it's our third eye, i swear
the one that sees weakness
can we really live happily the way we are?
i believe so
if that makes me ignorant, so be it
but i, myself am ok with that
if you can not handle it then that's fine too
stop seeing with your third eye
people will eventually be afraid to come close
own up to who you are
before you start to tell others how they should be
no one is 100% happy with their life
but some can admit that and continue
they do not look to the past or the future to make up for the now
they simply live
not worrying about what others may agree upon as the 'good life'
but only worrying about one's life

RANDOM!

Even Angels have their wicked schemes and you take that to new extremes...


I wish I would have heard Rihanna's version first...but I still love both songs!

Anyways....tonight my post is about...LOVE! lol Yes, what else right? j/j

Girls, what is our strength? Our vagina of course! lol
I want to encourage the female youth to wait...wait as long as you can!!!
Sure, sex is a beautiful thing.
It is shared between complete strangers in a night
or by two lovers embracing one another.
But when should a female give it up? (guys don't answer that)
Remember when you were a little girl,
and your mom told you about being a "FLOWER"
Of course at the time, we roll our eyes.
Wonder why this conversation is taking place.
But little do we know, it is our mother's only way of protecting us.
The only way she can teach us to save ourselves.
Hard to realize this at the time.
But when you take the time to play everything back,
you're MOMA is always right about this stuff! lol
Our mothers can not save us from heartache,
or choose the age and person we chose to "give" our virginity to.
However, my mother did teach me to be smart!
Sometimes we can not deny who we are.
Some of us are straight out nymphoes! LMAO!
(you know who you are! >_< )
And sometimes we are not blessed with a "mother"
but we can still learn to respect ourselves.
It doesn't mean you have to close your legs til marriage!
It just means be smart about who you choose to sleep with!
A man will not respect something he doesn't have to work for!
It's true, and it's something that will never change!
SO LADIES, STOP THINKING YOUR PUSSY HAS MAGICAL POWERS!
Well it does, but in the sense that it can make a guy respect you
because you volunteer your hooha!
NOT TRUE, NOT IN A HUNDRED YEARS!
Save yourself the time and learn to subside your sexual urges!
Sometimes out of hormonal frustration, I tell myself I should have been born a guy.
In reality, I love being a woman.
I get to wear all these pretty dresses! LMAO J/K
We are so beautiful, we can be rare.
In today's society, if you are not putting out right away...you are RARE!
Embrace your POWER!
Your ability to have SELF CONTROL!
Now that is my definition of PUSSY POWER!
We only appreciate what we work hard for, not what easily comes!

-Thanks mom, you have taught me well. I am only strong because you are strong for me. You are enduring and patient. You may be crazy, but I can't wait to be a great mom like you one day :) lol

the little voice

you know that feeling...
when the silence creeps up your spine and engulfs your mind...
your deepest, the darkest comes to light
there is no where to hide because there is no where the light doesn't reach
things slowly sink in and you feel you've walked a thousand footsteps
pacing back and forth, wearing in the soles
for a second you think to make a run for it
but in that second, your feet weigh a hundred pounds
so there you stand, blinded by the darkness
how is it so, you could have sworn
sworn you banish these thoughts and feelings to never ever land
but no, there it stands, staring at you
every move you make, it follows
puzzled, you then realize
it has been you all along, your worst enemy, your biggest fear
then yor close your eyes, clench your fist
say a prayer and hope to wake up from the nightmare
but no matter how you wish, how you dream
you always wake up in tears, cause you know its coming

Katy Perry - Firework

TY KATY PERRY, JUST THE SONG I WAS LOOKING FOR!!!

READY?

you can't live in the past because it's already been lived
wake yourself up and open your eyes
stop feeling sorry for yourself
do something to make your life better
easier said then done? sure!
STOP FEARING, take some risk
FALL ON YOUR ASS, and get up!
who cares about who is watching
they don't matter, you matter most
BREAK OUT, START LIVING for once in your life
STOP WASTING THIS LIFE!
BE GREAT, even if it's only being you.
BE GREAT AT BEING YOU!
the first step to take is to LOVE YOURSELF...





I LOVE THIS SONG...
BECAUSE IT MAKES ME FEEL GOOD ABOUT MYSELF! hahaha
I wish music could pump confidence into people, i'd feed you music all daY!

alive but not living

searching...
searching for the right time...
the right things to say...
the right thing to do.
I've been lost lately.
Feeling empty inside.
Feeling dry.
Love Tank of E and not a pump in sight.
where this road leads, i have no clue.
roaming the far corners of the mind,
i find no answers to the questions that arise.
was it something i did, was it something i didn't do?
i'm just looking for some shelter, somewhere for my mind to rest
i wish we all could go back to a much simpler time
when nights were endless
and the morning sun was when we all knew it was a night to remember
when we would all put on our cutest outfits, slap some makeup on
and ride out to find the next victim
i don't know when that all changed
i can't blame time for it is something i can not stop
but when did our definition of fun change?
when did your plans not include me
and i no longer had the urge to find an adventure in you?
i don't think you realize how well i know you
time will pass and you will hope that it will all go back to that day
the day before you and i realized
realized that there is nothing left to save
but i can't tell you i will be there when you are ready
because i've always been ready
ready to accept the great, the bad
but it was that day when doubts became words
and words became actions
all i ever wanted for you was happiness
if you are happy now, then i am happy
but don't you ever dare tell me this was all to hide away
your actions translate into your words
and your actions are telling me you want to go,that this is happiness
it is great
trust me when i say i can walk away
i guess i'll see you...when i see you
i'll be on the road...don't wait up for me.
i gotta start living, living for me
when you are ready, i hope you will see
see the greatness in others have to give
to stop giving to constrict
but give to nourish, to breakout
breakout of that prison, your own hell

what more can i do?

What more can I do? What else can I say?

Your mind is made up, your foot is out the door.

I can feel my heart beating, but the life in me has died.

How could you doubt me, how could you forget?

When did I lead you to not trust me,
when did I abandon you in your time of need?

These questions roam my mind,
like sand across the desert land.

When I see your name,
no longer are the fond memories we once made.

My heart is blacken from the third degree burn,
sent by your very words.

Words that can not be taken back,
words that are now whispers in the wind.

They blow through my hair and ring in my ear.

The echo so strong,
haunting words possible of blowing out my ear.

In my recovery, how will you mend me?

A broken spirit, how to repair?

Is it in you, is it in me?

Where do we go now,
when is it time to give up and leave?

There are still unspoken thoughts,
open wounds, waterfalls of tears.

A place we do not want to revisit,
but we both know we'll be back down that road.

Do we play dumb, do we plug our ears and sing "lah lah lah?"

What more can I do, what more can I say?

I know I'll always love you,
but I can't keep going on hurting this way...

THE DOWNTOWN FICTION - I Just Wanna Run (Official Music Video)

I just wanna run, hide it away...

"like a game of chess, I predict your moves. I think I know you better, better than you do! I'm sick of feeling cheap, cheated and abused...sick of losing sleep...thinking about you"

Happy Birthday Babe!

Yup yup, ANT'S 25 TODAY! What an old man? baha Not really! I love when his birthday rolls around...it reminds me of the nights when we first started to hangout! ^_^ Though we are not innocent like little teenagers, our beginning was very innocent! BAHAHA I WATER BALLOON BOMBED his ass on his own birthday three years ago!!!  HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANH! I hope it's one to remember! :D I am so blessed!

a headless horseWoman!

So...it's OCTOBER! Not only is it one of my favorite months of the year...it's also one of the busiest! MIDTERMS, BIRTHDAYS, HALLOWEEN! Talk about stress...stress...stress...but there's so much fun too! haha This year...the girls and I have an added BONUS! ONE REPUBLIC and MAROON 5 BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's gonna be so much freaking fun! But while it will be fun...it will also be stressful because I gotta get my butt back into town to make sure my babe has an AWESOME 25th BIRTHDAY! As always, I hope the turn out goes well. Ant and I are so thankful for the great circle of friends we do have that don't mind taking some time out of their life to spend time with us. SERIOUSLY...THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! From the bottom of our hearts...we REALLY REALLY APPRECIATE you guys!!! I can't wait...but before I can go play...I have quite the load! Along with tests and assignments...I have a research paper due next tuesday...that I haven't started on! :O MAJOR FREAK OUT! But I gotta turn something in...I just have to keep pushing...because well...I've come too far to freaking quit now! lol Though I am puzzled about my future in Mass Comm....I have to start getting my mindset to be ready to embrace my major. We'll see how this all goes...awehaf ne;oh rtnatuh aoiwr 39tuj4 ajoirje SCATTER BRAIN!

Neon Trees - Animal

I love the way this song makes me feel...just wanna get up n jump around! ^_^
WO-OH..I WANT SOME MORE! WO-OH WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR???

CLicK!

it's getting to that point,

my back up against the wall

you give me no room to run

yet when we are face to face

all you give me is a blank return

this really makes me want to punch you in the face

but in reality i just want to give you a hug

what is it that you want

what is it that your heart desires

can you not be decisive about the things you heart

c'mon now

lets all be adults here

if you keep pushing me up against this wall

i will retaliate

i will kick you in the knee

so when you are down

i can run, run run run

and as you look up at me

i'll give you the finger and laugh

laugh in mockery

because i was the caged bird

now set free

BAHAHAHAAA...I've official lost it today! Amen.

But now our hearts are falling apart...-Little Boots

Ladytron - Tomorrow

Freeze tomorrow....


Something found while browsing youtube. I really like their sound...it's mellow...good beat...good for cleaning day...or just wanna have an easy day! :)

Jason Castro - Somewhere Over The Rainbow - Studio Version

To my dear little best friend...thank you for the card..
And more importantly your love. ^__^
This song makes me think of you...because you are like a bottle of hope.
I can carry you in my pocket, and when I am running low on hope...
All I have to do is open it and take some of you out...
To remind me smile, to be happy, and to keep going! I LOVE YOU! :)

New Heights

         As I reflect on  2010..the past, present and furture so much has happened and will happen...not for myself but for the ones I care and love most! There have been unfortunate events and life changing events! I am so excited for everyone! Even though there has been a death in my family, I am so proud of those who are dealing with the death of a father and I wish them the best and pray they have the strength to keep going in life...to fulfill their father's dream to see his children succeed! I know he is so proud of you guys!
    
       Another heavy hitter this summer...to one of my best friends...she has blossomed like never before! Weakened by her own fears in the past, this summer she has gone face to face with some of her demons and is still fighting and striving for the best...the best in life and the best in herself. It's great to watch people grow, it's a beautiful thing because we are all so scared of change. Keep going lil lady...the possibilities are endless and because your heart is so pure...God will watch over you and his love will translate through you to those who's life seem dim! I love u!

      And to another family member/best friend...I am so glad you are READY! Ready for all that is rightfully yours in life! Ahhh....the excitement you feel in your heart is what I feel too! You just have no idea, all the great things that await in the new life God has planned for you too! Your life before was an obstacle course and a test of character to prepare you for the greatness you are meant to have in this life! It's gonna be AMAZING! I love you! Stay strong...like you've told me...this is the "Good Struggle" :)

     Of course I can't leave out my hunny bunny AntoniO! tehehe After a year of sitting on his butt, he's back in school! A few of my friends often say "it's awesome you got him to go back n finish school," of course I would like to take all the credit but in reality I believe that only you...yourself can make yourself do anything! Therefore, all the credit belongs to him. I am so proud of him. It's funny, it almost feels like a mother sending her child off to school...it's that kind of feeling. bahaha So corny, I know! But I am most happy to see that he is stepping up to the plate to do something about his life, his future. Go baby, GO!

    Honestly...I could keep writing...because so many people around me have blossom this year. Out of fertilizer grows flowers and fruits. :) bahaha Seriously! to be cont....

what are friends for...

Apparently...not much these days. Tonight, I witnessed a broken heart. I could be wrong, but if those were my shoes...my heart would be in a million pieces. Sure, we might have plans...things come up...or we simply do not feel like taking the time out for others sometimes...but really!??!!! Do you not have the decency to pick up the phone and be like "Yo,can't make it" or simply say No in the first place...don't act like you care when you really don't. I'm not mad at their actions because everyone is human...we are selfish...but it makes me sad to see someone who actually cares surrounded by these phony ass people! Their friendship is directly a benefit to only the other person. It made me really sad tonight..words almost can't describe the way I feel about the situation. People, please...if you want to be a good friend  to someone...just be truthful! And truthful to yourself whether you are worthy of being associated with such a great capacity to care and love others beyond themselves. Tonight amazed me...how cold the world has become...just amazing...

OneRepublic - Secrets

This time, don't need another perfect line....

boo to this semester...

You think after all these years in school I'd get use to the pressure of a hard class every once in a while. HELL NO! I don't know if I got sick from this weekend with all the heat and body funk going around in the club or that I got so stressed out from school that I feel like poop. Either way, I feel like CRAP! My sinuses have flared up, chest congestion, runny nose...bleh...I am just down with the sickness right now. I don't have the flu but physically and mentally I am so tired and stressed...and yes, it's only the second week of school. *sigh* So yea, I am about to skip my first class. I have this HUGE BREAK (2hrs) so I think I am gonna take a sick day. Am I happy about it...no not really cause I feel disappointed in myself, but my body is begging me to get the hell out of here. 2 more days til Sat. I don't think I've counted weekdays so closely before til this semester. If I make it out alive...the hard part will be over...seriously...this is the ONE CORE CLASS all majors cringe about in my department. So yea, I'm trying  to be strong and persevere but some days, like today...I just don't have the strength. Like who makes you show proof of having a book just to turn something in! 2 case readings for the weekend, on top of other assignments. Goodbye weekend, goodbye insanity. I'll see you guys in the spring. :'( I know it's too late to rethink my major, but the insecurities are setting in...

Adele - Daydreamer (Live)

Proud of myself...

What could be so significant that I would want to post about it? I am proud of myself for the simple fact that I have been able to let go of some people in my life. I don't believe many people realize how big of an impact they have in my life, so when they want to walk out and I am not ready...it is very difficult for me! Sound childish? It is, and for the longest time I would mourn the death of a friend or someone close to me after I felt abandoned. FINALLY, I am learning and loving this feeling of overcoming the fears and feelings...to accept the simple fact that it's not something that I didn't do, but it is something outside of me. Larger than me. It's an individual's need and desire to explore their options. I was always so stubborn...suffocating! But now, when I hear certain names I no longer get a strong surge of hatred. I can simply shrug my shoulders and just be "ok." It's a very happy feeling. It's one more thing I am at peace with! YES, I am so proud! :)

finally....

Finally...I can let you go and it feels ok.
I can say I have come to terms, we just weren't meant.
This relationship died long ago, yet I was too blind...too stubborn.
I pushed and pulled, I screamed and begged.
Nothing was good enough, you were already gone.
But now a days, I no longer feel haunted by your ghost.
When I see you, a simple hello feels right.
No more bickering, no more animosity.
I am now stronger.
Strong enough to walk outside of your shadow.
Strong enough to walk away from the games.
Strong enough to hold back the tears.
Now a days, I smile.
Finally, I am ok.

(Sound's alil off...)

I'm so RICH!

OMG, I am one of the LUCKIEST girls alive! I am so blessed and loved! In my life I've had many struggles, everyone has their own story. As I take a moment to reflect on past and current events, I can't help but to feel joy in a time that my heart has not been feeling so happy. Tonight, I really didn't want to go out but for my older sister I did. I was accompanied by two great girlfriends! (one missing in action b/c she needs to save her energy to be a "groupie" for next weekend! LMAO!) Anyhow, by the end of the night, despite the feelings and emotional exhaustion I've been going through...I felt at ease. A little "normal" again, after seeing everyone's face. I don't know what it is, just being around my family, girls, and lover just gives me that sense of hope that everything will be ok in the end. I just need to persevere. Suck it up and keep going. I sympathize for those who do not believe in friendship. Regardless it is between family, friends, or a significant other. It's such a essential component in my life, these friendships have kept me going and pick me up when I am lost or lonely and cheer me on when I have something good going on for myself. I've met plenty of bad people, but for those who have stuck with me...THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I've learn so much. Perhaps the most important thing is to EXPECT LESS! Why expect less? Because...it is humbling and it makes the rewards much GREATER!!! If you know me, I bring a lot to the table. And every once in a while, I get out of hand. Crazy almost. hahaha I drive myself crazy because I begin to "expect" things out of my friendships when it's as easy to just "ASK" for what I need instead of "expecting" them to read my mind. I hate for any of the relationships I have to constantly feel that I am impossible to please...which I can be. I've read in a post once that b/c of my zodiac sign with the combination of my asian zodiac...I have an eye for detail...like it is easy for me to pickup on what those around me like...therefore making it very easy to bring a smile on their face by simply paying attention. Not so much for others. It took me a long time to accept this and really taking into consideration that I need to give those around me a break because I am usually reserved. Yes, I am LOUD and off the wall when you meet me but in reality I am an individual that can be quite hard to read because I do not like to give off "emotion." Almost...cold as ice. My vocab consist of very harsh words and statements most of the time or laughter. hahaha I'm no means perfect and have a long way to go before I can find a happy medium between how I feel and needing to express them,but I am hopeful  because the important people in my life deserve a great friend and not some half ass person. Thank you and good night! Check out Jo Jo...she's got some good songs on youtube! ^_^ Love that pint size girl...she has so much soul when she sings! :-D
"You are my LOVE, my LOVE. I'll give you all my LOVE, if you, if you don't ever change a thing!" :-D

Officially Missing You - Tamia (Acoustic Cover) *Only available in HIGH ...

This is one of my ole time favorites! :-) Lovin' her voice!

Sweet Dreams - Beyonce (Piano Acoustic Cover)

OMG....faint! Her voice is amazing!!! It's just...so beautiful. Angelic! Makes me feel at ease...

Mrs.Sonita Williams

So today is my last day of service learning. It's somewhat bitter sweet because the agency I got assigned too is so super sweet. I actually looked forward to coming to my supervisor daily because she was such a radiant and positive lady. Her name, you guess it...Mrs.Sonita Williams! She is the administrator of SU Office of Publications and E.Media. She's so cheerful and bright, always happy. I love this about her because in general I am a pretty pessimistic person. lol  And she likes to HUG!!! So I get free hugs everyday I come see her. haha She makes me smile when I think of her. I am not sure of her exact age but I would guess early 40's...but she has the spirit of a twenty year old! I accidentally broke her mug the first day I worked for her but she didn't even get mad! haha >__< I am such a klutz! Well she has me answering  phone calls on my last day, the most she has ever asked me to do. lol I got her this really cute ZEBRA mug to make up for the one I broke! ( i'll post pic later) I hope she likes it, I included a bottle of nail polish and some gum because those were the 2 things she ever mentioned or asked me for while I was here so I thought it be nice to add it in her little gift bag I made for her. I hope she smiles when she opens it because it's the same exact feeling I get when I open her office door! ^__^ I'll definitely be back for my last 20hrs. How can I not when this lady sits and plays tetris on her computer when there's no mandatory staff meeting! hahaha

oh..she has this wonderful quote on her desk I like to share...because it's so incredibly TRUE!
"SO, DON'T WORRY ABOUT PEOPLE FROM YOUR PAST, THERE'S A REASON WHY THEY DIDN'T MAKE IT TO YOUR FUTURE."

lets keep this to ourselves.

I have nothing right now, my mind is thoughtless.
My heart is overwhelmed.
I have no reason to be unhappy.
Yet I can not seem to do anything but frown.
There is this darkness that grows in me.
Every morning I wake to find myself in misery.
I hear everything, but feel nothing.
I am weak and tired.
I am ill.
My spirit is broken and I have no will to carry on.
What is this darkness in me?
Someone please, ignite a fire that will burn this sadness and free my soul.
There is a sadness in me that no one can comprehend.
It's not a place or feeling that physical hands can grip.

It's just the sadness in me.

 

takes some getting use to...

So I am trying out Blogspot since all my buddies have also made the move. It's somewhat taking me a little time to get use to all the settings and what not. I am sure I'll eventually get the hang of it. Hopefully this will be a new home for my random thoughts. lol