Since I've started the new job, it's been great. There are ups and downs, but that's life right. Anyhow...recently got engaged!!! OMG!!! I didn't even write a post! :( Well, it's not too late...lets do that now! haha
Date and Time: November 25, 2012 4:30 PM
Location: Baton Rouge, La in a HOT AIR BALLOON@1500 FT UP!!!
What can I say...WHAT CAN I SAY!!!!??? I was literally floating on the clouds! We made 5 years just 2 days ago and to celebrate, he told me to keep my Sunday open because he had "plans." haha I knew it was coming but I didn't know exactly when or how he would pop the question. I've been told countless times- "You're so Lucky," and yes ladies....YES I AM! He kept the hot air balloon a secret up until we met up with our pilot. At first I didn't know what to expect...get in someone's truck and ride around with them??? Sounds like a scary movie huh? hahaha Mr. John was a true southern gentleman! He had his brothers and family all there to help launch us. I must say...it makes it a lot more memorable and intimate. Once we were up in the air, it was smooth sailing. We got VERY LUCKY!!! No crazy winds...just the beautiful sunset and mist. We saw the river, houses, farm animals, trees...everything you imagine it would be! So of course he digs into his pocket and mummers, "You know why I've brought you up here, we've been together for a while now. Will you MARRY ME???" haha I didn't want to make him any more nervous so I said YES right away! Ant is not a man of many words...he lets his actions speak for themselves. With ring on my finger....we got ready to land. Everything was perfect...I am truly blessed! I wish the same for every girl out there!!!
Ok, now back to present day.
WORK IS KILLING ME! Well, it's kinda driving me BANANAS!!! First, I got ganged up on by all the clerks...they said I was "mean, disrespectful, hard to work with, not understanding...." those sorts of things that have nothing to do with work itself. Luckily my boss had my back, so whatever. I keep it moving. Second, our hours get cut. I was still full time, but at the minimum amount of hours. Ok, I can deal. Recently, they shorten the store hours!!! Now I am working on average 15-20 hrs a week! How is a girl suppose to SURVIVE??? It's madness I tell you! So now we're all freaking out and wondering what are our options....what to do???
On the same day I got the news about the store hours, a manager from another department offered me a position. Nothing fancy but at least I could get my hours!!! So I just finished applying for the position. I hope all goes well so I can leave retail. I liked retail and I liked my manager...but there's no way I can hold out 6 months and not know when my hours would go back to full time. It's kinda bittersweet. Although retail was a pain in my behind, there's a lot of opportunity yet to come. I hope I am making the right decision. I hope this all pays off in the end! Fingers crossed...I have to keep moving forward to find out.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Friday, November 23, 2012
Happy Anni Anh!
WOw...WOWiE..WOW...WOW! NăM, FiVe, CinCo, CinQ, 五....
My heart sprouted wings and fluttered around in my chest. It's an indescribable feeling, a feeling many of us share,but can never explain. It's the spring in my step, it's in the air that I breath. It's your Love that I have been living on for the last five years. Today we celebrate another year! When I met you, I was 21. Now I am 26! it's so "CRAY CRAY" haha When you are having fun, time really does FLY! As we get older, we love deeper. We try not to say things we don't mean out of anger and learn that "change" is not losing oneself, but bettering oneself.We truly are the lucky ones. Thank you father for sending me someone so kind, patient, firm, considerate,and loving. I look forward to this day again...and again...and again. Hooray to us Anthony. I love you with all my heart and I hope that we will always be there next to one another on this journey. You are my best friend, my lover, and my family. I LOVE YOU!!!
October 2007
(our first photo together)
haha oh the memories!!!
November 2012
(our most recent photo)
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Relationships
People come and people go...you can't hold to them forever. I find myself constantly learning things that I should have learned a long time ago. Maybe I have been in denial...wishing for something that I knew in the end would never be. What are relationships if they are always a one way stream? What people fail to realize is that in today's world, your reputation and perception goes a long way. So please I beg of human kind to come about your own judgment and not by a bias interpretation of someone's personality. It is hard enough to find genuine people, but for their image to be tarnish b/c someone may not have had a positive encounter...it break my heart because often times it happens to me. By no means am I perfect but I know I have a good heart. Please don take that away from me! You can not like me, that is fine but please don't tarnish my heart.
It is apparent the dinamics of my relationships have changed...but it sucks I wasn't given the opportunity to redeem myself. My feelings were really hurt tonight. There's not much Anyone can understand unless they really know me. Yes, I have a hard head and. Soft ass. It does hurt when I fall on it. ...sigh, relationships is a hard thing for me...
It is apparent the dinamics of my relationships have changed...but it sucks I wasn't given the opportunity to redeem myself. My feelings were really hurt tonight. There's not much Anyone can understand unless they really know me. Yes, I have a hard head and. Soft ass. It does hurt when I fall on it. ...sigh, relationships is a hard thing for me...
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Secrets
Beethoven's 5 Secrets - OneRepublic (Cello/Orchestral Cover) - ThePianoGuys
Now this is AWESOME!!! :) And brings a smile to my face....calms my nerves. It's been stressful lately at my new job. It's not so much the work but getting use to working with new people. I thought it was bad where I use to work but it wasn't at all cause I got use to it. With a new job, meeting new people was exciting but over the past few weeks I am getting to know these individuals more and sometimes...and often I receive unkind words. On a regular basis this would not bother me, but I am trying my best to be "nice" and approach my coworkers with a different attitude. I just need to be patient with myself I guess. Wish me luck everyone...I've got a long way to go. I am giving myself 6 months to test the waters and if there is not much growth in my department...I may have to think up plan B! I will not allow myself to become complacent but continue to push myself each day to learn a little something new. I will not allow myself to lose to someone simply because I did not "know"... I will FIGHT!!!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
So grateful
Yes, I really could go on and on....but I won't. I've been off for about a week now, cleaning and trying to organize my life. With this free time, I was blessed with the opportunity to appreciate even more all the love my boyfriend shares with me. I don't quite know how to explain it, but when I think of him it makes my heart flutter....just like the first time I "accidentally" said I love you. haha I know what we have is one of a kind...and yes, yes you are right....I am very lucky! I hope everyone has the opportunity to find a one of a kind love...or at least get to experience it...it can really change your life!
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
i don't understand why it is so hard for me to understand,
but i am learning.
i know that one day,
i will wake up and not feel a sadness,
but a happiness.
An acceptance!
Monday, July 23, 2012
Wisdom
Last Friday was quite bittersweet! It was my last day at my previous job. I won't miss the work but I sure will miss the people. Oh the stories, can't believe it's been almost 5 years there. Now to look forward to another job that I hope will give me 5+ years. Fingers crossed.
And of course I had to do some celebrating w/some good friends. Idk, the dynamic of my relationships have changed a lot in the last year. I had a very enlightening conversation w/a friend and it had my gears turning ever since. Perhaps what she was saying were valid points I've been avoiding. I am still learning, still shedding, and hoping to become a better me. This change is for me, but it is also for the important individuals around me. And hopefully it will lead me to meet new people and find new relationships. My friend told me she has different groups of friends that serve different purposes. That is how she keeps her relationships healthy by not relying on just one group of people. To not put all your chips in one pot. Lol I forgot the saying but yea...u get it.
In my life, for most of my grown up years...surviving is not the most difficult task for me. I would have to be true to myself and say friendships and maintaining them is my number one challenge. Perhaps it will always be that way and I will never figure it out. Who knows. Whatever the case, I am learning how to cope...to be patient...and to be at peace. And also forgiveness. Yes, forgiveness in others and forgiveness for myself.
And of course I had to do some celebrating w/some good friends. Idk, the dynamic of my relationships have changed a lot in the last year. I had a very enlightening conversation w/a friend and it had my gears turning ever since. Perhaps what she was saying were valid points I've been avoiding. I am still learning, still shedding, and hoping to become a better me. This change is for me, but it is also for the important individuals around me. And hopefully it will lead me to meet new people and find new relationships. My friend told me she has different groups of friends that serve different purposes. That is how she keeps her relationships healthy by not relying on just one group of people. To not put all your chips in one pot. Lol I forgot the saying but yea...u get it.
In my life, for most of my grown up years...surviving is not the most difficult task for me. I would have to be true to myself and say friendships and maintaining them is my number one challenge. Perhaps it will always be that way and I will never figure it out. Who knows. Whatever the case, I am learning how to cope...to be patient...and to be at peace. And also forgiveness. Yes, forgiveness in others and forgiveness for myself.
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
A little break
Today I had a terrible toothache so I called in and took a day off! It was much needed! The weekends are nice but there's usually a lot going on that I don't have much time to myself. Plus the next 2 weekends are going to be busy busy since its my baby sister's big 25! Haha I am kinda excited because it's an excuse to get all dolled up and go be social. It's gonna be tiring but I gotta make sure she has a great birthday! :) a big sister's work is never done! Glad I only have one to look after!
It's June, and in a few days it will be July! Wow is the time passing. I can not lie, ready to get the year over with because it will mean I survived another year! Haha I will be making an exciting transition soon! I am a little fearful of what's to come but at this point I am pretty desperate for some change! Gotta jump in with both feet and hope for the best! Fingers crossed!
Lately my emotions have been on a roller coaster! I know it's something I need to pray about to find peace!!! Somedays I can handle it and other days I want to run and hide!!! Maybe it's just that TOM But we see! My hormones are always running wild! Haha got my head all screwed up too! Women and our emotions! Smh!
I want to take a trip and the end of July but where!? I figure dallas cause its far but close enough to go w/a small group! Gotta figure out my plans ASAP since it will soon approach! -_- I wish everything was free or we all we rich! Haha I know, in my dreams right!?!?
Realization:
The present can never return to the past. Relationships grow apart or they grow closer. Sometimes it is not what you didn't do but what you can do if given the opportunity. If the opportunity is never given, then pray for peace and acceptance. Be happy about the growth and embrace it instead of taking it as rejection. The world will not end and your heart will heal. Let time be your friend and silence be your serenity. Breathe!
It's June, and in a few days it will be July! Wow is the time passing. I can not lie, ready to get the year over with because it will mean I survived another year! Haha I will be making an exciting transition soon! I am a little fearful of what's to come but at this point I am pretty desperate for some change! Gotta jump in with both feet and hope for the best! Fingers crossed!
Lately my emotions have been on a roller coaster! I know it's something I need to pray about to find peace!!! Somedays I can handle it and other days I want to run and hide!!! Maybe it's just that TOM But we see! My hormones are always running wild! Haha got my head all screwed up too! Women and our emotions! Smh!
I want to take a trip and the end of July but where!? I figure dallas cause its far but close enough to go w/a small group! Gotta figure out my plans ASAP since it will soon approach! -_- I wish everything was free or we all we rich! Haha I know, in my dreams right!?!?
Realization:
The present can never return to the past. Relationships grow apart or they grow closer. Sometimes it is not what you didn't do but what you can do if given the opportunity. If the opportunity is never given, then pray for peace and acceptance. Be happy about the growth and embrace it instead of taking it as rejection. The world will not end and your heart will heal. Let time be your friend and silence be your serenity. Breathe!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
aquarians
I do however have some things brewing inside my mind. It's just something I have no control over and have to learn to accept and be at peace with. I have to learn to not have expectations of the situation and continue to be positive. Some days it's easy, other days I let it get the worse of me. I believe there is a deeper problem but I can not jump the gun. I just have to let be....what is meant to be! The work week is almost over, I can't wait for Saturday to spend some much needed time with a group of people I literally grew up with! lol I am pretty excited because this small group of friends and family because they are my safe place! I rarely have to censor myself or calculate my moves with them, it's all about having a good time and making memories! It's very refreshing when I get to be with them....hopefully it won't be the last! :)
Monday, June 4, 2012
dear old friend...patience
As I reflect on this year...a lot has happened....and look at the time, it's already June. Man oh man, where does the time go? I've graduated, no job! I mean I have a paying job but no career as a friend likes to put it. Sigh. Still holding onto the hope that my time will come. I am quite tired of working my body into the ground! I can not deal with the "labor," my poor body is breaking down!!! I am becoming an old bag of bones! lol
I still job hunt here and there. Some days I feel driven, other days it's just flat out depressing!!! No matter what, I do have faith. I will give it til the end of the year, if nothing changes...it's looks like I will have to make a life change! Not getting any younger for sure!!! The real world is "scary" hahaa
Recently enjoyed my Destin Memorial vacation! Man, why did we all have to leave! It was so bittersweet!!! Even though we had 2 full days, it just wasn't enough! I am still sad that I am back in this miserable place! I know, Baton Rouge isn't that bad but dammit...I want to go back! haaahhhaaa Hopefully I can squeeze in one more trip but who knows. After graduating, it's kind of hard to schedule things ahead of time.
I am finally working the morning shift hours! It's not so bad since I have the afternoon to enjoy, but lately I've been sleeping my life away. FAIL! haha I don't know what it is anymore, my body just doesn't respond the same way. I really need to get my life together!!!! >_< Well my life and my health!!! Definitely need to draw up a short term goal/plan for myself. Need to make a to-do list for 2012. lol Yea, we'll see how that goes.
Ant and I are doing well. I love that kid, he is my life. Although we have our moments, it keeps me on my toes. It definitely reminds me to not be too comfortable and complacent because that's when you start slipping and "letting go" of yourself! It is a joy to be challenged and work towards a common goal with Anthony. Don't get me wrong...there are some days when I'm just dead weight. haha Thank goodness I have someone who appreciates me on a good day and loves me even when it's bad! :D Counting my blessings! ^_^
now for some free style:
Patience
Some days I have plenty
Other days I fall short
Lately, I've been caught in between
It would be easier to wash my hands clean
But these mixed signals cause me to linger
Hoping for recognition, or even just a little attention
It's hard
It's even harder to know I'm pushed a side
Am I suppose to wait
Am I suppose to leave
What would make you happiest
What would make you complete
I am human, just like everyone else here in the crowd
Somehow, hugs became tears
Laughter is now replaced with silence
Oh, and this silence it rings so loud in my ears
My heart it breaks
It slowly crumbles as the days pass
I know I should forget,
But it's hard to forget someone that was so dear
The time and dedication
Some how only took seconds to go up in flames
Should I have a funeral
Bury these feelings
Should I have a party to celebrate
Caught in the middle
A casualty of war
I think soon it will be time
Time to throw in the towel
I never stop fighting
But out of respect I must abide
It is not just you that is hurting
I've too felt the burn of the fire
Please just let me know what it is you want
So that I can dig up some courage
The courage that is needed
to have Patience
For someone that perhaps
Will never come back
I still job hunt here and there. Some days I feel driven, other days it's just flat out depressing!!! No matter what, I do have faith. I will give it til the end of the year, if nothing changes...it's looks like I will have to make a life change! Not getting any younger for sure!!! The real world is "scary" hahaa
Recently enjoyed my Destin Memorial vacation! Man, why did we all have to leave! It was so bittersweet!!! Even though we had 2 full days, it just wasn't enough! I am still sad that I am back in this miserable place! I know, Baton Rouge isn't that bad but dammit...I want to go back! haaahhhaaa Hopefully I can squeeze in one more trip but who knows. After graduating, it's kind of hard to schedule things ahead of time.
I am finally working the morning shift hours! It's not so bad since I have the afternoon to enjoy, but lately I've been sleeping my life away. FAIL! haha I don't know what it is anymore, my body just doesn't respond the same way. I really need to get my life together!!!! >_< Well my life and my health!!! Definitely need to draw up a short term goal/plan for myself. Need to make a to-do list for 2012. lol Yea, we'll see how that goes.
Ant and I are doing well. I love that kid, he is my life. Although we have our moments, it keeps me on my toes. It definitely reminds me to not be too comfortable and complacent because that's when you start slipping and "letting go" of yourself! It is a joy to be challenged and work towards a common goal with Anthony. Don't get me wrong...there are some days when I'm just dead weight. haha Thank goodness I have someone who appreciates me on a good day and loves me even when it's bad! :D Counting my blessings! ^_^
now for some free style:
Patience
Some days I have plenty
Other days I fall short
Lately, I've been caught in between
It would be easier to wash my hands clean
But these mixed signals cause me to linger
Hoping for recognition, or even just a little attention
It's hard
It's even harder to know I'm pushed a side
Am I suppose to wait
Am I suppose to leave
What would make you happiest
What would make you complete
I am human, just like everyone else here in the crowd
Somehow, hugs became tears
Laughter is now replaced with silence
Oh, and this silence it rings so loud in my ears
My heart it breaks
It slowly crumbles as the days pass
I know I should forget,
But it's hard to forget someone that was so dear
The time and dedication
Some how only took seconds to go up in flames
Should I have a funeral
Bury these feelings
Should I have a party to celebrate
Caught in the middle
A casualty of war
I think soon it will be time
Time to throw in the towel
I never stop fighting
But out of respect I must abide
It is not just you that is hurting
I've too felt the burn of the fire
Please just let me know what it is you want
So that I can dig up some courage
The courage that is needed
to have Patience
For someone that perhaps
Will never come back
Friday, May 11, 2012
A Thousand Years -
Christina Perri - A thousand years...
This song pretty much sums it up!
It's the way he makes my heart beat faster,
the smiles summoned from the butterflies in my stomach,
and the security I feel in his arms.
In my wildest dreams, I've never imagined I'd be this blessed in life...in love.
What started as a heart break... became an opportunity.
I will never regret us.
All the beauty he has brought to my life...leaves me speechless.
I know I have God to thank.
Today is a good day, tomorrow will be a good day.
The rest of my life will be filled with good days because I have you,
my best friend, my lover, and my home.
This song pretty much sums it up!
It's the way he makes my heart beat faster,
the smiles summoned from the butterflies in my stomach,
and the security I feel in his arms.
In my wildest dreams, I've never imagined I'd be this blessed in life...in love.
What started as a heart break... became an opportunity.
I will never regret us.
All the beauty he has brought to my life...leaves me speechless.
I know I have God to thank.
Today is a good day, tomorrow will be a good day.
The rest of my life will be filled with good days because I have you,
my best friend, my lover, and my home.
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Standing firm
May started off quite busy! Working most of the time but the past two weekends have been fun. Bumping into old faces. It's nice vein around people from time to time to socialize and share details. I am most excited about the end of May!!! Eeep!!! I will be able to get away w/Ant for a few days w/close family and friends! I am very excited about the group that's coming this year!!! I will get to travel w/drama free people!!!! YAY!!!!
This is really the only thing I have to look forward to all year...simply because it's the only trip Ant and I get to go..together! What can I say, my baby's a hard working man! Lol I don't know if I'll go again next year so it's pretty special for me this year! Ahhhh!!!! It's almost here!!! I think everyone that is coming really needs this vacay! We got a beautiful townhouse...2.5 weeks baby! I can almost hear the waves!
This is really the only thing I have to look forward to all year...simply because it's the only trip Ant and I get to go..together! What can I say, my baby's a hard working man! Lol I don't know if I'll go again next year so it's pretty special for me this year! Ahhhh!!!! It's almost here!!! I think everyone that is coming really needs this vacay! We got a beautiful townhouse...2.5 weeks baby! I can almost hear the waves!
Monday, May 7, 2012
Tired...
Yup. That pretty much sums it up. I am sure the roles have flipped flopped but I am...tired! In confidence I can say I've tried then, and I am trying now but I get it now. I get that it's dead and done. I can respect it. I will respect it. What's the point of putting yourself out there for someone who will not pay you any mind!?!? :( still a bit sad over everything but I can do no more... Because apparently nothing will be good enough! I know everything will be alright over time. I Just hope it won't become a tug-a-war effect on mutual friends. If so, I believe I will lose my sanity! Well, tomorrow is Monday so it's back to the grind!
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
'Human"
I would give my life to be human....
Wow it's already April..and soon MAY! Little has changed...but mentally I've been riding on a carousel. I've been going in a circle and slowly...watching the people around me fade in and out. Is it a bad thing....not really. At the end of the day...it is like people say - "At least you gave it your all, there is nothing more you can do." Now that I am on the other side of things...I now understand that statement in all of its entirety. Every experience is a lesson learned...and so I will continue to learn. I can not change the past...I can only reflect.
Listening to the radio on a late drive home, a caller was pouring her heart out to the radio host about her childhood lover and how he was cheating...blah blah blah. And of course it was typical he would promise not to cheat again and that he'd do anything to stay in the relationship. Then she said "I don't know if he can change." The host replies, "Yes, yes he can, but does he want to?" DING DING DING! That statement made me realize a thing or two about my relations. And then it gave me some closer. Lets see what time will bring....
Wow it's already April..and soon MAY! Little has changed...but mentally I've been riding on a carousel. I've been going in a circle and slowly...watching the people around me fade in and out. Is it a bad thing....not really. At the end of the day...it is like people say - "At least you gave it your all, there is nothing more you can do." Now that I am on the other side of things...I now understand that statement in all of its entirety. Every experience is a lesson learned...and so I will continue to learn. I can not change the past...I can only reflect.
Listening to the radio on a late drive home, a caller was pouring her heart out to the radio host about her childhood lover and how he was cheating...blah blah blah. And of course it was typical he would promise not to cheat again and that he'd do anything to stay in the relationship. Then she said "I don't know if he can change." The host replies, "Yes, yes he can, but does he want to?" DING DING DING! That statement made me realize a thing or two about my relations. And then it gave me some closer. Lets see what time will bring....
Friday, March 16, 2012
Swallow
I feel myself sinking into the great quicksand of blah!!!! Someone throw me a rope! Gonna organize and clean my life...starting with my room! The freakin walls are caving in and the days merge into night. I need space!!!! Since I can't go out and get my own... I must work with what I have! Clean room, clean up my life...and clean out my head!!!! -_-
Friday, March 9, 2012
Insomnia
It's very late in the night...I am thinking about everything and nothing in particular. Sound familiar to anyone? Besides having no luck with Jon hunting, my coworker asked me how it was going today. He gave me some great advice... "pray on it! And if nothing comes along then it was meant to be that way and it's just another opportunity for you to pursue something else!" lol this made me smile because it's very true. I do believe God has a plan for us all, we just need to be patient. I think I am going to take a step back and be grateful of my current situation instead of planting time bombs in my head. God will take care of me as he always have in the past! :)
OMG! Onto other news...the only thing that is keeping me sane anyhow! My annual memorial holiday beach trip is in full effect! I am so excited! I can not wait to arrive in Destin and just kick back! The sound of the waves, blistering heat w/the sun, beautiful views of the ocean! AHHH! It is much. Deserved for all of my companions of the trip! :) yippee! Gotta get my body right...I won't be have a beach body but at least I will be proud of myself for doing something! :D very very excited!
Ok, gotta hit the sack now. Think I will try to get into the routine of writing everyday...even if its just rambling...at least my thoughts won't be trapped inside! Gnight
OMG! Onto other news...the only thing that is keeping me sane anyhow! My annual memorial holiday beach trip is in full effect! I am so excited! I can not wait to arrive in Destin and just kick back! The sound of the waves, blistering heat w/the sun, beautiful views of the ocean! AHHH! It is much. Deserved for all of my companions of the trip! :) yippee! Gotta get my body right...I won't be have a beach body but at least I will be proud of myself for doing something! :D very very excited!
Ok, gotta hit the sack now. Think I will try to get into the routine of writing everyday...even if its just rambling...at least my thoughts won't be trapped inside! Gnight
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
thinking cap....
I haven't written a blog for the new year yet...and tonight I finally have something to say...or well some thought I wanted to write about before I head to bed!
Personal Life:
I've graduated and things aren't moving as fast as I'd hoped. Although I've submitted MANY job applications...not luck! I know I just have to keep trying and pray that I will get lucky one day to get a call back! My current job is steady but there is a lot of BS that goes around the company that I am quite fed up with! Sure sure...that's any job but it is really time to pack my things and get the hell out of there!!!! Other than that...I am good.
Love:
My love is still by my side and as the days pass by, our love gets stronger and stronger. It's no means perfect but good enough for me! :D I still wake up sometimes wondering how I got so lucky to have such an amazing person to call my lover. He completes me...and assures me that I too complete him! We have much to work on but at least we have one another for this journey! Who knows what the future has in store for us!!!!
Friends:
It's been kinda stormy. I don't have many friends but the ones I do have are very important to me. I work very hard at my relationships and most of the time it is a mutual understanding relationship. Unfortunately for one...it's been a battle. The sad part is....I don't believe the conflict has to do with me. I believe the drama stems from deeper problems that one may have deep down inside and sometimes I get caught in the cross fire. Therefore, it is really nothing I can do. I have tried my best to be a good friend but when the relationship becomes abusive....I will reach my breaking point. I pray it will get better...but the odds don't look too good. I refuse to be someone's punching bag! I hope God will bless my friend with the courage to face her demons and ultimately over come them!
to be cont.....
Personal Life:
I've graduated and things aren't moving as fast as I'd hoped. Although I've submitted MANY job applications...not luck! I know I just have to keep trying and pray that I will get lucky one day to get a call back! My current job is steady but there is a lot of BS that goes around the company that I am quite fed up with! Sure sure...that's any job but it is really time to pack my things and get the hell out of there!!!! Other than that...I am good.
Love:
My love is still by my side and as the days pass by, our love gets stronger and stronger. It's no means perfect but good enough for me! :D I still wake up sometimes wondering how I got so lucky to have such an amazing person to call my lover. He completes me...and assures me that I too complete him! We have much to work on but at least we have one another for this journey! Who knows what the future has in store for us!!!!
Friends:
It's been kinda stormy. I don't have many friends but the ones I do have are very important to me. I work very hard at my relationships and most of the time it is a mutual understanding relationship. Unfortunately for one...it's been a battle. The sad part is....I don't believe the conflict has to do with me. I believe the drama stems from deeper problems that one may have deep down inside and sometimes I get caught in the cross fire. Therefore, it is really nothing I can do. I have tried my best to be a good friend but when the relationship becomes abusive....I will reach my breaking point. I pray it will get better...but the odds don't look too good. I refuse to be someone's punching bag! I hope God will bless my friend with the courage to face her demons and ultimately over come them!
to be cont.....
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
-On our way
you,
you light my red fire babe
hot white, and blue.
i,
i think that you,
i think you're so cool babe
loving everything you do.
you say we're gonna run away
put on your sundress, summer day
flying around on the highway.
spin me round kiss me in your chevrolet.
i love you more with each and everyday.
top down, gonna make a getaway,
top down.
spin me round kiss me in your chevrolet.
you found me when i had lost my way.
foot down, we're going all the way, touchdown.
you,
know what i want.
take me to the k-mart,
pick me up pink lipgloss.
how,
you get so hot
you're making me crazy
hoping you'll never stop.
you say that we were meant to be.
we'll be together finally.
flying around and i'm finally free .ouu.
spin me round kiss me in your chevrolet.
i love you more with each and everyday.
top down, gonna make a getaway.
top down. spin me round kiss me in your chevrolet.
you found me when i had lost my way.
foot down we're going all the way touchdown.
we're on our way (x4)
why,
did i think too much?
you tell me not to worry
because you're the boss.
you,
you got a real good plan.
my trouble's all over now
because you're my man.
you don't know what you've done to me.
you're heavier than heavenly.
life on the run has set me free,
me free now.
we're on our way (x15)
you tell me not to worry
because you're the boss.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
WOW!!!
i tell you all the time,heaven is a place on earth with you. tell me all the things you want to do.
I heard you like the bad girls,honey... is that true?
I heard you like the bad girls,honey... is that true?
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
This year...
This year I want to make it about me! I can not wait to set myself free from my finances and enjoy the year with hobbies I've put off! Keep on the lookout, I feel my creative side slowly coming up for air! I want to experience failure so I can better myself and my life! Let's do it! Although my mood has been blah, I am trying I stay hopeful! Patience! Yes!
Thursday, January 5, 2012
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