Ingrid Michaelson - Parachute

just hold to me, i'll hold onto you. it's you and me up against the world, it's you and me...

it's so cold outside, but it's colder in your heart

the night air is cold
but the frost surrounding your heart
can not melt away with a spring shower
your words cut like jagged ice
no amount of pride can shield me
your anger is enough to send the devil running
God is my only savior
no matter how much hate you harbor
love will set me free
i am no longer afraid of you
for my silence will over throw you
say what you will
embarrass me to kick me out
your blood may be thick
but believe my water will wash my hands clean of you
today you have lost my respect
and broken these chains that held me hostage
thank you for showing your true colors
i no longer have to pretend
i can not change who you are
i  just wish you could have accepted me
but at the least, i will do that for you
good bye for good
thank you for the lesson
thank you for giving me the courage to walk away

4 years is nothing...

"4years is nothing compared to the rest of our lives together" he answered when i asked him if it was a big deal. Good answer babe, great answer! :)

I am blessed. Thank you Mimi for helping us capture this memory! I'll never forget our first kiss! after-all, it's how I snatched you up! Lol ahahahakrjdfusnd I love him!!! :D

Color Me!

I love taking this quiz randomly!!!

COLOR QUIZ

And my results as follows...

Your Existing Situation

"Inclined to choose luxurious things, which are gratifying to the senses. Turned off by things which are tacky and tasteless."

Your Stress Sources

"Needs some help and support in order to improve her current situation. her lack of appreciation and understanding makes her feel as though no real connection exists, causing her to feel touchy and sensitive. she needs to feel safer and more carefree. Wants to get away from the depressing relationship is and re-establish her individuality. she is sexually self-disciplined which makes her unable to give to much to others; however, the isolation she feels makes her wanting to surrender and give in to her sexual desires. her mixed emotions make her feel a weakness she must overcome, so she continues to hold back her feelings and is confident that makes her uniqueness stand outdo. "

Your Restrained Characteristics

"Finds satisfaction in sexual activity, but is emotionally detached which prevents her from becoming too involved."
"Current situation makes her feel unable to prove himself, but tries to make the best of things."

Your Desired Objective

"Has a strong desire to contribute and influence others, but it can make her restless. she is driven by her desires and hopes. Enjoys a wide range of activities, but she may spread herself to thin taking on too much."

Your Actual Problem

"Feeling anxious and restless frustration toward current situation or unfulfilled emotional requirements are causing stress. she feels misunderstood, used, and anxious. she strives to search for new relationships or environment, in the hope they may offer her happiness and peace of mind."

Your Actual Problem #2

"Feeling unimportant in this current situation, and is looking for different conditions where she will be able to better prove her worth and importance."

If you have time, check it out! It is quite enlightening!
http://www.colorquiz.com/

Keep Breathing

In times when I feel it's too much, I will remember that all I can do is "keep breathing."
When relationships become toxic, I will learn to step back and allow myself to come up for air.
I will ask for patience when I can not understand.
I will ask for patience when I want to ask for change.
I will ask for patience when I feel I can not achieve.
I will remember I have not failed, but that time is needed to mend.
It does not matter how badly I want things to work, I can only standby.
Until then, music will fill the silence that has come between us.
I still believe in your good, and now I am learning to not look for your bad.
I hope this is a new chapter and that the end is not near...

Pretty Lil Heart

tell me that i got it and that you want it even more....

What a fool...

A transition
A change
Feeling uncomfortable in new skin
Wanting a change
Fear of the unknown
So many questions
Not enough patience
Stir it all together
Insecurity
A silver lining
A Hopeful day
Take hold of someone's hand
Take hold of tomorrow
Stand on the fine line
Dare to step over and brave the consequences
What a fool
A fool I stand
I am ready for rejection
And hopeful of acceptance
I am ready to live

I think I will dream alittle.

Why does it seem when you learn more about yourself, you tend to lose more friends? And when you finally reflect on the past and want to reconnect with friends, they have already moved on...aiyah, I know...it is life... "friends grow a part." I want to believe differently and yes, I understand that that saying is also true in most cases, but I want it to be different for me. I guess all I can do is hope and pray! I am sure the big man hears what I am saying! lol I am grateful for my family because I know they will always be there, but I am hoping the friends I have once told " I love you" to will also stick it out with me or will come revisit a much happier time again! -to wishful thinking