alive but not living

searching...
searching for the right time...
the right things to say...
the right thing to do.
I've been lost lately.
Feeling empty inside.
Feeling dry.
Love Tank of E and not a pump in sight.
where this road leads, i have no clue.
roaming the far corners of the mind,
i find no answers to the questions that arise.
was it something i did, was it something i didn't do?
i'm just looking for some shelter, somewhere for my mind to rest
i wish we all could go back to a much simpler time
when nights were endless
and the morning sun was when we all knew it was a night to remember
when we would all put on our cutest outfits, slap some makeup on
and ride out to find the next victim
i don't know when that all changed
i can't blame time for it is something i can not stop
but when did our definition of fun change?
when did your plans not include me
and i no longer had the urge to find an adventure in you?
i don't think you realize how well i know you
time will pass and you will hope that it will all go back to that day
the day before you and i realized
realized that there is nothing left to save
but i can't tell you i will be there when you are ready
because i've always been ready
ready to accept the great, the bad
but it was that day when doubts became words
and words became actions
all i ever wanted for you was happiness
if you are happy now, then i am happy
but don't you ever dare tell me this was all to hide away
your actions translate into your words
and your actions are telling me you want to go,that this is happiness
it is great
trust me when i say i can walk away
i guess i'll see you...when i see you
i'll be on the road...don't wait up for me.
i gotta start living, living for me
when you are ready, i hope you will see
see the greatness in others have to give
to stop giving to constrict
but give to nourish, to breakout
breakout of that prison, your own hell